It's been quite the year. Right after surgery I thought, what the hell have I done. I could not get in any water or protein shakes. 10 days on a liquid is no walk in the park and after I left the hospital my pain meds made me so sick I could not take them. I pushed on knowing it could only get better. At my 10 day check up I was down 21 pounds. If I had the energy I would have done a dance of joy.
Over the last year I have learned a lot. There are still things that make me sick that I use to love...like chicken. Man, I really miss eating chicken. I keep trying it every few weeks to see if I can get it down. I am determined!! I have learned to cook and shop in a whole new way. I have learned to tweak old favorite recipes to a way that I can enjoy them. I can't really have any sugar without feeling like I want to die, so it makes it pretty easy to avoid. Everyday I have to remind myself not to overeat. Everyday I still measure my food. My food scale is my best friend. It helps keep me on track and helps keep me honest about what I am eating and how much. I grocery shop and come home and pre-portion my snacks in snack baggies so if I need something I don't have to think about it. It's already measured for me. Cheese and Nuts are my go to snacks these days. I still love my protein shakes and replace breakfast or lunch with them a few days a week.
One thing I never ever thought I would like to do is exerceise. I love my gym. Before I hated going because I always felt like everyone was staring at the fat girl. Now I toss on my exercise clothes and bust a move. Body Pump and Zumba are by far my favorite classes. I also find I enjoy walking to work or even walking on my lunch break. I like to move and that is very different for me.
My weight loss has cost us some pennies on top of the standard hospital and dr bills. I have gone through a ton of clothes. I am starting to even out now but I would still like to lose a little more. I am working on re-building my wardrobe slowly. When you need everything from undies to shoes (yes your feet shrink) it is not cheap!
The last year has been challenging and fun all at the same time. I feel better, have more energy and have a better outlook. I am more confident and more self aware. I feel like I have a re-newed purpose. I still enjoy going to support groups to try and help new pre-op patients start their journey and offer any advise I can. A lot of them read my blog now which is nice.
Some outsiders think gastric bypass is the "easy" way out. I can assure you, and so would any other post op that it is FAR from easy. My weight is still something I have to work at everyday. It will always be a struggle to maintain a healthy lifestyle but I am determined to do it!
At the end of 365 days I have gone from 303.5 and a size 28 (yes both those #'s are embarssing and I can't believe I am putting it out there for all to see) down to a current 182 and a size 10/12. I would be happy living my life at 150 so I still have a ways to go.
|Me "before" July 2010|
|Me and Viv - June 2010|
|Me- June 2011|
|August 31, 2011- 1 year from surgery!|
|Just for fun :)|
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